http://t0old4lovegames.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us http://t0old4lovegames.buzznet.com/user/journal/51232/ Normally, I don't just open up to people. I'm afraid if I do, I'll spill my life secrets. I have a lot of secrets. Some I haven't even told my best friend. I'm scared to be loved! I'm scared to be with him for more than a few months. I feel terrible once we break up because I love him more than anyone else in this world, but I'm terrified to let him in too much. I figure it's safer to keep a clean distance. I could possibly be wrong. Maybe loves me just as much, but I continuously push him away. I'm just sick of getting hurt. My heart probably will never heal. That's not his fault either. Maybe if I didn't hold all my secrets to the last little second, I could deal better. Still, I can blame everything and everyone in the world, but that I won't make me feel any better about myself. I l hate myself]]> Buzznet t0old4lovegames 2006-09-05T15:49:21Z